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To start if off,
here are some facts about ME!
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To start if off,
here are some facts about ME!
Share this post and leave a comment telling me a fact(s) about YOU!
I want to learn more about YOU!!!!
So for now, here's some more about me with a few questions asked via formspring to end the post! :)
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I love meeting new people!
I started editing and retouching photos before I started photography.
I can never have a favorite of something. My mind and interests are always changing!
I always have big ideas. When I find something good, I want to share it with everyone!
I always have big ideas. When I find something good, I want to share it with everyone!
I prefer to purchase from local and family/self owned businesses. I know what it feels like to run a business and have someone interested in your product/services, so I am always trying new things and buying locally when I can!
I love antique shops! I am a little old lady at soul (words of my friends and family) LOL
I am super thrifty, I LOVE getting a good deal and shopping in thrift stores!
The people on facebook saved my life.
The people on facebook saved my life.
I only had professional pictures done once of my own family. I regret it so much.
I love when people tell me how Max has become apart of their life and how he has impacted them. I also love when people tell me how CUTE he is!!!! Gotta love him!!
I have finally started to define who I truly am, I am learning more and learning to love myself more every day! It has been a struggle but I have learned I can not grow until I can accept and love myself! It is still a challenge and will always be!
I literally spend MAYBE 5 minutes on my hair every day. I am in love with my 3 barrel iron!
I literally spend MAYBE 5 minutes on my hair every day. I am in love with my 3 barrel iron!
I love feeling pretty and sexy!
I really listen to every genre of music. I like a little bit of everything.
I really listen to every genre of music. I like a little bit of everything.
I love BOOTS!
I love tattoos.
I do not drink or do any sort of drugs. I went to a drug treatment rehab facility for 8 months after years of trouble with the law, addictions and a toxic life style. I am now 3.5 years clean and sober!
I am probably the biggest dork ever! Sometimes I wonder if I am the only person in the world that acts completely goofy and insane when I get in the right mood LOL
I love to dance!
I sleep with my son's teddy and blankey in the bed. I used to have to sleep with all of his animals, a few of his outfits and just be completely surrounded in his things. His things started to lose their smell so I put them away and limited myself to 1 outfit, 1 teddy, and 1 blankey lol I used to fall asleep holding his teddy but I lost a lot of sleep that way because it was hard to get comfortable cause I didnt want to smoosh him. Now I just have to have the teddy somewhere in the bed, usually right next to me and he has to have covers too lol
I have played the piano ever since I was a little. I am always putting together new pieces, morphing songs and teaching myself how to play different songs by ear. I sit down and just play about once a day. I literally go into another place when I get going. It is a huge stress reliever for me!
I am probably the biggest dork ever! Sometimes I wonder if I am the only person in the world that acts completely goofy and insane when I get in the right mood LOL
I love to dance!
I sleep with my son's teddy and blankey in the bed. I used to have to sleep with all of his animals, a few of his outfits and just be completely surrounded in his things. His things started to lose their smell so I put them away and limited myself to 1 outfit, 1 teddy, and 1 blankey lol I used to fall asleep holding his teddy but I lost a lot of sleep that way because it was hard to get comfortable cause I didnt want to smoosh him. Now I just have to have the teddy somewhere in the bed, usually right next to me and he has to have covers too lol
I have played the piano ever since I was a little. I am always putting together new pieces, morphing songs and teaching myself how to play different songs by ear. I sit down and just play about once a day. I literally go into another place when I get going. It is a huge stress reliever for me!
I often struggle with my self image and plastic surgery. There are 5 cosmetic surgeries that I feel would make me OK with how I look.
I love food so much, though I am always trying to look for ways to eat healthier!
I love make up and trying new things with it and creating new looks.
I have a hundred different voices that I subconsciously use when I am in different moods.
I have an addiction to photography props. Our house is overflowing with antiques and random junk that I start hoarding LOL ask my mom :P
I love make up and trying new things with it and creating new looks.
I have a hundred different voices that I subconsciously use when I am in different moods.
I have an addiction to photography props. Our house is overflowing with antiques and random junk that I start hoarding LOL ask my mom :P
I love animals so much but I am so allergic to everything.
Being a mother is something that came and felt so natural to me. I can't wait to have a 2nd child and make my little man a proud big brother!!!
Q: "What's your favorite color?"
A: Every time someone asks me this, I honestly have no idea. I think to myself, and there are just so many beautiful colors, it's overwhelming! I usually end up deciding that my favorite color is red because I look good in red and it stands for many important things :) So RED
Q: "What kind of camera do you use?"
A: I <3 Nikon!!!
Q: "how do you handle loosing your son? how do you go around children his age?"
Q: "how do you handle loosing your son? how do you go around children his age?"
A: When you experience something so painful and unnatural, your body goes into a numbing shock. You are so numb that you feel "okay" the first few weeks, "okay" enough to bury your child into the ground. Then the numbness wears off, and you nearly die too. Then you find things to occupy yourself with and find ways to honor and remember your child in a positive way. You start to feel better and feel happier and before you know it you are smiling again. Then, some days you wake up and there is just no possible way you are getting out of your bed because the pain is just too great. The truth is, you never get over it. You never heal. You never over come it. You learn to carry it, smile with it, tell about it, and share your grief. I never planned on "handling" losing my son. The second I was told he was going to die, I just told myself I would die too. I had no intention of living a minute without my son. But some how I did, and a big part of how I did, is through photography.
Children of all ages, but particularly babies can be very painful to "go around". It used to hurt me SO bad. I have held a new baby and cried so many times in front of everyone. I have smelled a poopy diaper and lost it. I have photographed a little boy turning 1 year old, went home and sobbed. But as I exposed myself to more and more children, I have gotten used to them, and learned to love them and see my son in every innocent soul. I love all children and can no longer resent them for being here instead of my son. Especially after the birth of my nephew. I resented him and my sister her entire pregnancy, but as soon as he was born, I loved him. He helped me learn to love again, and gave me hope that one day, I too could love another child. I will always love Max. He was my first and only baby. I fell so deeply in love with him. I attached to him. I thought I could never love another person like I loved him, but I can. and I will, some day! For now, I know Max wants his momma to put all the love I have built up for him, into something good, and that's just what I am doing.
Children of all ages, but particularly babies can be very painful to "go around". It used to hurt me SO bad. I have held a new baby and cried so many times in front of everyone. I have smelled a poopy diaper and lost it. I have photographed a little boy turning 1 year old, went home and sobbed. But as I exposed myself to more and more children, I have gotten used to them, and learned to love them and see my son in every innocent soul. I love all children and can no longer resent them for being here instead of my son. Especially after the birth of my nephew. I resented him and my sister her entire pregnancy, but as soon as he was born, I loved him. He helped me learn to love again, and gave me hope that one day, I too could love another child. I will always love Max. He was my first and only baby. I fell so deeply in love with him. I attached to him. I thought I could never love another person like I loved him, but I can. and I will, some day! For now, I know Max wants his momma to put all the love I have built up for him, into something good, and that's just what I am doing.
Q: "Have you ever had any formal training in photography? Any class, any workshop, etc?"
A: I am always tuning in online photography work shops, learning new things, constantly researching and trying to learn MORE. The learning never ends. I have not majored in photography or had any college education in photography. I am completely self taught and have learned many things through online workshops and photography forums along with my own experimenting and discovering.
Q: "Did you graduate high school?"
A: Nope! I got my GED in May of 2011 and started my first semester of College at SVCC in August of 2011. I attended a semester of regular high school and decided it just was not for me. I transferred to an alternative school where I thrived and was able to get many credits ahead of the rest of my class. I got pregnant shortly after transferring schools which really motivated me to get a lot of work done so I could take time off to be with my baby. After my son was born I had an amazing teacher come to my home every morning at 9am to help me get a lesson done each day. After Maddox passed away, I tried to attend my alternative school again, just 1 month after we lost him. It was way too soon to try to attend school again, even though everyone was nothing but supportive, I just couldnt stop thinking about my baby all day long, and thinking about how happy and pregnant I was and how excited everyone at school was for my baby, only for me to return, as a grieving mother. My school was so amazing, everyone loved Max so much, but I decided it was the best choice for me to drop out from high school, and just move straight forward to college. It was and still is the best decision I could have made!
2 of some of the most special people in my life! Peyton was like my first baby. She loves Max so much and still talks about him everyday. This is one of the few pictures I have of them together. She is such a good aunty!
This is my tinkas, my wuzza, my wudda, my tinka ty, my ty guy, my ty ty kai lan, wuzza wuzza woo woo, lol I love this little guy so much! Am very thankful for him, as he is Max's first cousin on momma's side! He reminds me of Max so much, I see Max in so many things that he does! He has shown me that I can love again!
This is me. A photo I like of myself! It is so hard for me to be okay with who I am, how I look, and to decide what I want to do and how I want to be. I really have to try hard to tell myself, I am only human, and I can't make room to grow until I can just accept myself and go from there!
I am human and just want to relate, connect and love with other people! Please share and comment on something that you'd like to share about yourself!!! I want to know what makes you, YOU!
If there is something that you'd like to know about me, feel free to ask!!! I am happy to answer any questions you might have for me!!! I look forward to getting to know you!!!
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